The new woman in my life

I have seen you a few times but did my best not to pay attention.
I knew it was something about you I wanted to stay away from. I just caught too good of a glimpse of you one day and you had me gone from that moment. See I never saw something so intriguing before something so mind blowing. Maybe I have seen it and just never paid attention but some how on this day I couldn't turn away. I knew I was taking a chance by even speaking to you and allowing my words to mix with yours but I figured hey just another sexy type Im gonna be able to run up on. I built myself up just saying "Yea you know how Neeve do" so I wasn't even concerned when we starting mixing words on a regular basis. See you know the real me, who I am now and who I was then and that didnt scare me. I spent hours thinking about you wondering what you would be wearing today, what our convos would be like this time. I played with the idea of actually spending time with you and doing more with you then just playing. See I have played with you for years you just didnt know, I went into places with you spent time with you made love to you, just never actually allowed you to become one with me. They say I have a wall up and wont let you have all of me, its so easy for people to say just let you in but see I am not built the same way most women are. I would rather run from you, fight you, kill even the thought of you instead of allowing you inside me in more ways than one. Seeing you now has amazed me how sexy you are to me now. Maybe I have spent too many years running from you, maybe it just wasnt the right time but now I am stuck thinking about you, wanting you, craving you every day wondering what its like to spend the rest of my life with you. when I wake up in the morning I desire you so much I can feel you near me, holding me, sexing me, inside me being a part of my life. There are times when I can think like the old me, laugh things off but then you come back in my mind harder than you were yesterday. Every moment spent with you just makes it harder and harder to even considering leaving you alone. I no longer want you, now i need you and its not just because its new for me its because you have been what I have needed all my life. Now I ask you...can you and I ...finally make it life today....can we make it permanent cause see I havent been looking for you, I have wondered about you though just didnt quite know how to approach you, or how to accept you inside my life. Now I am ready for all you have to offer and from what I can see you have a lot to give me, but see unlike before I am willing to give everything I have for you and only you. Is it too soon you ask.... no see I been missing you forever so why would I run now? I'm not I will wait until the day we come together as one for life. I am ready to marry you now, commit to you, life with you.....I am happy NOW that I met you.

This letter is to you.....the new woman in my life's name is ...LOVE...see her and I are meant to be and nothing and I truly mean nothing will come between us.